Don't Take It for Granted

I take my life for granted about a thousand times a day. And I probably will keep doing so because we're all selfish by nature and we get so wrapped up in our little lives and how everything seems like such a big deal in that moment. But in this moment, I'm thankful for:

1. My home - I walked in the door tonight and I was so happy just to be home. My own little part of the world where I feel safe, with the things and sounds around me that mean so much to me. Not material things really, but the stories behind the pictures and paintings and hats... my life.

2. My health - I was feeling sorry for myself earlier because I have to take some medicine for a few days that's going to make me uncomfortable but I have insurance that covered it and only had to pay $5. There are so many people that would love to be able to take medicine that makes them uncomfortable but better but they can't afford it. And then there is the little boy that I saw on my way in to the doctor that has cancer and I'm sitting here feeling like a real schmuck now. I can't imagine the pain he is going through, what his mother must feel on a daily basis to watch and wonder what will happen to her little boy. Yeah, I suck.

3. My family - My little girl drives me CRAZY on a daily basis. And the days I don't see her I physically hurt from how bad I miss her. But she is happy and healthy and smart and beautiful and I'm so lucky she's mine. It's not the greatest situation, the shared time but I'm doing what I truly feel is best, and doing the best with what I have.

4. My job - I bitch about it on a daily, sometimes hourly basis. But I have a job and I'm independent and I can do things a lot of people can't. And I truly am thankful.

5. My freedom - I get lonely and it sucks sometimes. But I don't live in fear or walk on eggshells on a daily basis and I know I take my life for granted.

On a side note, I found this while I was going through some things when I was moving and I wanted to share...

My Hand Print
Sometimes you get discouraged,
Because I am so small,
And always leave my finger prints
On furniture and wall.

But every day I'm growing up,
And soon I'll be so tall,
That all those little hand prints
Will be difficult to recall.

So here's a current hand print
That you can put away.
You'll know just how my fingers looked
This year for Mother's Day.

Hopefully I will get better at this, and be better. But in this moment, I am so thankful for my life and all the people who love and care about me. I am a very lucky girl.

Peace,
Jen